Thursday, May 7, 2015

Nevertheless, I Live

In order to live I must experience death.
In order to breath I must experience the loss of breath.
In order to serve I must live a life that is no longer my own.
In order to thrive I must realize that this place is no longer my home.

I was a fool
Dead inside
Carnal
Devoid of life
The power that I had been given
I dismissed in vain
Striving for something my flesh could never attain

The Crucified One, The Holy One of God, Mashiach, King, The Afflicted One
You bore the cross for my sins
Wholly submitted
Humbly committed
Never making a defense
The Yielded and Surrendered Son

Here I am, Lord
I beseech Thee My Master, come soon
Murder my flesh
I no longer want a life of my own

Doulos, Bondservant
Slave of the Most High
I would rather be a doorkeeper in the House of The Lord
Than to dwell with the wicked who struggle and strive
My life is no longer mine
I give up, Take it, It is Yours
I submit Lord,
I die to myself
So that I might live in You forevermore.


Death To Self

I willingly submit to You today Lord.
I willingly submit to Your plan for my life and the life of my family.
I willingly submit my husband and children to you.
I willingly submit our health, our spiritual well-being, our physical well-being, our emotional well-being, our finances, our home, our future, all of our possessions, Lord, they are Yours.
I was a fool to have ever believed that they were mine.
I am a fool for not willingly submitting to You, as you have beckoned my heart so many times.

Lord, take my life, it is yours for the taking.
Strip me, mold me, humble me, break me, crucify my flesh.
"I have been crucified with Christ," Paul proclaimed, but never have I.
I am a weak and lowly man,
Without brokenness, without shame.
You came into this world to save sinners, of who I am the chief.
There is nothing good inside of me apart from You.
I am full of pride, full of self, full of death.
I am tired of being who I am.
I am tired of being my own god.

And so it is Lord, I willingly submit to you today.
Let the world call me a fool.
I have decided to follow You and You alone.
Upon that Old Rugged Cross I place my life.
Nail it there Lord, and never allow me to take it back.
Nevertheless Lord, into Thy hands I commit my life.